Every friday Lisa-Jo hosts a link up for writers all writing for five minutes on one word. No editing (except maybe punctuation and spacing). Straight off the cuff and through the fingers to the screen.
CHOOSE:
It’s funny, but really kinda sad.
As we were preparing to go to the Philippines, I gathered art supplies from every missions closet offered to me to browse.
I shipped them halfway around the world and put them in my art closet.
And there they pretty much stayed.
I clung to them with the thoughts of; “I don’t want to waste them” and “I can’t replace this stuff over here”.
And so I didn’t do as many crafts with my kids as I dreamed about. I lived with a fear of using them up and then what?
So, we dragged them back around the world and here they are in my art closet, on the shelf.
Much of my stash is still unused.
I know in my head I need to CHOOSE to use them.
I must face that old fear again and forget about messing them up.
Which in itself is a bit weird.
But to make anything beautiful I must CHOOSE to loosen my grip on those pots of pigment and colors encased in wood and put slashes and blotches on the white of paper.
It is funny that I am afraid to paint but I am not afraid to snap a million photos.
… However, I rarely print them.
What is the deal with that?
Maybe it is because I can only afford to print a few and have them done up in frames and matts for the walls of my home and I am afraid to CHOOSE…
… because once I do … surely I won’t be happy with them and wished I’d picked different ones.
STOP.
I know. I have issues.
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