In July of 2011 a post of mine was featured on (in)courage.
The topic was facing fear; in particular my fear of the white of a blank piece of watercolor paper that hid behind a door in my home. It was stretched and ready to go but it sat there hidden behind a door for a long time. Months.
I didn’t want to “waste” an expensive piece of watercolor paper by painting something that would turn out mediocre. I was afraid to mess it up. It was as if the blank paper was worth more than any efforts I could attempt to make. As if the blank sheet was perfect the way it was and any mark I might make on it would render it “ugly”.
The post published before I was informed and so I never was able to write a “teaser” post on my own blog ahead of time to send readers over to (in)courage to read it.
At the time it was published I was headed to Florida for a much needed vacation with my family. We stayed the night at the famous South Of the Border “resort”. We intended to stay there two nights, my husband wanting our kids to experience the junk shops and climbing the big sombrero that overlooks I-95, something he did as a kid with his parents.
While my husband and kids romped in the pool, I sat and checked my email.
It was flooded with “comments” to reply to. After a moment of confusion, I realized that my post had been published THAT MORNING.
I wanted to shout Hooray and Yikes at the same time! I was disappointed that I had not been able to post a “teaser” on my blog but I was thrilled at the response my article was receiving.
I sat down to respond to the comments and as I worked my way down the list I read this:
I have considered Holley to be a friend since meeting her at Relevant/Allume 2010, the very first one.
For that kind of response from a person whom I admire and respect in the blogging community… WOW.
However, the dark valley of 2011 and 2012 caused me to back off blogging and over time I forgot about Holley’s comment.
When Holley released You’re Made for a God-sized Dream,
I was still in healing mode and sat on the sidelines as I watched and read about all the bloggers involved with launching the book and then writing about pursuing their God-sized dreams throughout 2013. I was slightly saddened (and slightly jealous) that I was not participating. Life just did not allow it at the time.
In the end of October 2013 I picked up You’re Made for a God-sized Dream at Allume. I come across a whole chapter related to facing fear and overcoming it.
I finally sat down to read it in the end of November. One morning while reading, I turned the page to see…
my name and words staring back at me off the page.
Yes. I admit it. I SCREAMED!
I was excited and shocked and overwhelmed all at the same time.
Linking up with Crystal for Behind the Scenes too!